Friday Fragments - You Need A License for Everything Except Being a Parent

Surgery is scheduled for Dec 14th right around the time my kids will be on stage for a winter concert. I am so sad about this because I missed Handsome's Spring concert because I was at the hospital and I am very disappointed but hope to be around for many more. It is more important to have this done, not wait any longer and definitely be home before the week of Christmas. If I have to hear my kids say Merry Christmas mommy to me over the phone while I am at the hospital, I don't think I could bear it.

Handsome lost his 5th tooth today. He was home sick and I was glad it didn't happen at school.

Goddess' teacher called me at 2:50 to tell me that Goddess had been crying since right after lunch. She didn't eat her lunch. Was more quiet than usual and when they returned to the class she cried and cried. They asked her what was wrong and she said that she missed me. The teacher gave her tissues and she quietly cried at her desk until her teacher asked her to help her in the hall to hang things up. It breaks my heart that my baby was sad at school and I wasn't there to console her. She is my child and I feel that it is not the school's call to keep her there. I should have been called and I would have gone down there. She is 5 for God's sake. She is my daughter. To know that she was crying all day and feeling sad and alone makes me crazy. I knew when she went to school she looked upset. This was the first day that she has gone alone. Her brother usually walks in with her. She looked so lost walking in there but never said anything. Poor baby girl.

Handsome decided on Monday he didn't want to wear a coat. After much coaxing and then yelling we couldn't get him to put it on. My husband and I decided to give him a lesson and let him head to the car without. He still refused when I got in with his coat. When we got to the school I was sure he would take it to walk in especially after I told him he wouldn't be able to go to lunch. He wouldn't and said he didn't care when I said that his friends would be playing outside and he wouldn't be allowed to go. His teacher emailed me, "he is here with no coat, is that right?" I wrote back and explained. She said, "fine if you want to teach him a lesson, I'm OK with that." I called the office and found out he was there. I asked if I could come down and talk to him while he was there. They agreed. His teacher said, he seemed upset. I walked in and he was sitting in a chair with his head down. I asked, "what's going on?" He said, "I forgot my coat" (before this he had told someone else he was in trouble). I asked, "did you forget your coat or did you leave it home?" His face changed and he started to cry. I knelled down in front of him, and said, "I don't want you to get upset. It is just that Daddy and I asked you to put on your coat because we knew you would want to play and now your friends are having fun and you aren't. Please listen next time." Then I tried to change the subject because he was crying. So I asked if he ate lunch, he said, yes. Then his teacher chimed in with "next time listen to your mommy and daddy." I was thinking geez, I'm trying to change the subject. I then asked if he would like me to get his coat so that when I picked him up, he would be warm. He said yes. I gave it to his teacher and didn't see him again until I picked him up. It was impossible not to think about him and his sweet little face, sitting on the chair and feeling sad. I know he had to learn a lesson but I hate that he looked so upset. Ahhh...parenting is hard.

Overheard conversation between Goddess and Handsome:
Goddess - "See that house? I'm going to live in it when I get bigger."
Handsome - "I'm going to live in it too!"
Goddess - "No, you can't because I am going to be a superhero and you aren't"
Handsome - Yup, I'm going to be a bad guy."

I love it. She has told me more than 20 times since September that she is going to be a superhero. "Me and Ava are going to be superheros when we grow up." or "I can't wait to be a superhero."

It's so cute how sweet life is for kids. To think that you could just be a superhero. The world is your oyster when your a child. How wonderful.

When we got home today, I asked Goddess why she was upset at school today. She said, "I missed you!" Then added, "I missed my big brother. I love him." When I told him what she said, adding, can you give her a hug?" He nodded his head and hugged her. She hugged him back with her head on his chest and started to cry. The hug was brief, the moment fleeting, but for this mom it will last a lifetime.