OMG I Am Feeling Done

The past month and a half have been a literal shit show of just rapid moments of craziness and I am so over it. 

I knew November and December would be a bit nuts because we have been planning a vacation for the month of December since February and I knew that most everything for my personal life and my school life would have to be done before I left. In preschool this is a very important month for these kids. Many don’t remember their first two Christmases and are very excited about this one. I, as a parent of young adults love making this is special month for my class and sometimes go a bit overboard with my plans. That’s on me. I have a tree up in the class, two felt trees with ornaments as well as a felt gingerbread they can play with and decorate. I play and sing Christmas Carols with them, read them Christmas books and talk about Christmas. 

For the past few years I have about 15 different things I do with my class for Christmas plus the parent gift  and the gift I give each kid. It is a stressful I mean it’s December and my personal life is as busy. Shopping lists, cards, cleaning, decorating, touching base with friends and family and all the normal things that go into everyone’s day to day life. 

This morning I woke at 2:50 A.M. I was trying to come up with something for the project the Director of the center felt we should do, plus the one I had started weeks ago on my own not know there would be some global project that was decided for the teachers of the center. I need to mail out things, feeling like I don’t have anything for my own kids and husband for Christmas. They are fine with that, we are going on vacation but it’s not for them, it’s for me. I want to give them something. 

Plus, I was trying to remember to order the kids contacts today, and what was that other thing I need to do? UGH I don’t remember. I am babysitting two nights this week, I hate flying and will have to do that soon. It just felt like too much. 

Not only did I wake too early, I had to be at work by 6  A.M. today. Have a 3:00 appointment at the chiropractor, it just never ends.

Then there is this whole “real” world thing going on. War, people dying, global warming, prepping, government, blah blah blah. It is all too much.

Does anyone else feel that things are spinning out of control or is it just me? I remind myself that I am blessed. My family is healthy, I am healthy, and my class is healthy. Things can always be worse but this morning it just seemed unbearable.